did we ask for girls, since we already have boys?

so from here out, things continue to progress and we take our sweet time getting things together.  we were adopting from haiti at this point, so see, there was no rush.  we had to wait until hubby turned 35 in march.  so, we thought we had all the time in the world to obtain doctor’s letters, reference letters, 14 hours of training to complete, etc.  i’ll spare you the details, but a few events occurred along the way that made us get our booty in gear!  i mention it only because we trust this was God’s little nudge for us to be prepared for these girls.  otherwise, as stated above, we were taking our time, and would not have been ready for what He had for us!

one thing lead to another and we were gearing up in january to get our final paperwork done and waiting for our home study to be completed. we were actually getting close to needing it for haiti's timeline.  as we work through this, rumors are flying all over about how haiti adoptions are getting unstable and moving at a snail’s pace (we can thank unicef for most of that).  so the week of january 16, 2012, there were some meetings down in haiti with the government regarding adoptions and how slow they were moving.  we happened to call our agency on thursday afternoon, the 19^th, to find out how the meetings went and what that means for us and our adoption.  “brenda, it’s not looking good!” case worker says.  ugh…she could sense my silence and disappointment on the other end and solemnly moved on to more of the nitty gritty we needed to get through.  She came to the “have you guys decided on a gender?” question.  sigh….we’ve been avoiding this!  see, God made it clear to us that we were to get siblings.  he didn’t make it clear to us what gender they were supposed to be.  we would love to have a girl (i’ve been surrounded by boys all my life…not that there’s anything wrong with them, i love what they’ve taught me, but it sure could be fun to have someone to craft with instead of ride motorcycles or atv’s with!!).  “we’re not shopping for a coat, our hands are wide open, we can’t put God in a box on this one” i tell her. 

so that day happened to be a day off for hubby.  there was some crazy freezing rain/snow/ice thing going on outside, so the whole city shut down for the most part.  so he’s home playing a game with the kids on the floor of the office overhearing me from the family room.  “ok, i’ve been debating this whole conversation to tell you about this, because i know you want haiti, and you shut me down on the drc before, but we just got info on twin girls last night.  do you think that would be something you would even consider….” case worker says.  i interrupt, “did you say twin girls??” 

hubby has said for years we would have twin girls in our family.  i argued vehemently that I was not carrying or birthing twins, period!  of course my not-so eaves dropping hubby (it was an important conversation…he wanted to hear too!!) comes flying out of the office pointing at me saying “i told you we were going to have twin girls” in triumph.  wait a minute, we haven’t even talked about this, i’m thinking.  how do you figure this is a done deal?! 

it was a done deal, we just didn’t know it yet!  case worker hasn’t even gotten the medicals on them, and wouldn’t until after the weekend.  so we tell her we’ll pray about it and wait and see what the medicals say.  i must confess, we both felt we weren’t prepared to deal with some major illnesses/impairments.  that is one thing that we feel we are not in any way equipped to deal with.  i feel like a huge jerk saying it, but it is the reality of our sinful selves.  so after brief prayer and discussion, we determine they are definitely an option.  i call her back and tell her to let us know as soon as she knows.  so the wait begins…one of the longest weekends of our life!  how have we already come to love them?